Following a Long-Lost Dream

I know that I am a health/fitness/vegan blog, but just recently I remembered the hobbies and interest I used to have. Singing, music, and songwriting and performing.

Ever since I was like 5 years old, I was super into rock and heavier types of music. I was in choir and performed a ton on stage all throughout my school years. I had so many solos, and I remember in 4th grade, I had 6 solos and belted notes like nothing as an 8 year-old. In High School, when I developed an eating disorder, I lost all my drive, passion, and interests. I lost more than my interests, I lost who I was. Anorexia sucked all my talents and drive for becoming a singer in some kind of rock band.

Even after I got out of the hospital and thought I was doing better, I had another obsession, exercise and counting macros/calories. I was doing 10x better, but I still had OCD like, anxiety-driven behaviors and fears. I spent my last year in high school and first year in college competing with my fitness level and desire to live a normal life. I didn't realize that tracking macros and doing too much exercise was obsessive at the time, because I coming from a worse place; the brink of death.

One day, I made the decision to to really change my life for the better, and I went vegan and stopped all my obessive like behaviors. Something just clicked, I started to socialize more, I began to rid of toxic people in my life and gain new healthy ones, I started to get into enjoying the sports and exercise instead of competeing with myself, and I began to go to concerts, reconnect myself with music and songwriting, and began to sing/scream everyday.

I've been practicing and perfecting what I used to have when I was a kid, and I've never been more motivated to reconnect myself with the childhood dreams of creating and performing in a band. I still want to become a fitness instructor and acheive those dreams as well, since it is a huge part of my life, but I really do what to be a singer, it was my first dream, and I want to make it come true.

Life is too short to not achieve all your goals in life, you just have to work your ass off in order to make it all happen for you. I have wasted so much time over pointless things that won't be remember or cared about after I'm dead and gone, and I want to make my mark(s) on this world in the most positive ways I can and connect and help others.

I want to make people feel good about what their doing with thier lives, not only through fitness, health, and lifestyle advice, but I want to express myself through words and songs, and help people get through life artistically.

I went to Warped Tour and I was in the crowd and I suddenly remembered just how much I dreamed of being on the stage having beautiful people connect with me through lyrics and screaming back them back at me. I can't think of a more powerful, united feeling than that.

This is not only an annoncement that I will also be starting another blog, Instagram, YouTube and possibly Tumblr and Facebook for my new career and journey I'm embarking on, but it is a reminder that if you have a change of heart and find or reconnect with a new part of yourself, go for it. Follow your dreams, reconnect with yourself, and fight for what you want, become an expert of not only yourself, your strengths, and weaknesses, but find out what you need to do and make magic happen.

We are all so capable of making things happen, but we often get held back by fear of change, rejection, failure, and the unknown. Sometimes we give up even before we try because of the world's competative, judgemental nature. I'm reminding you not to be afraid. Failure is a step to success, and everyone will face in on their journey to becoming who they want to be and doing all they want in their lives. Don't be afraid, because failure is a part of winning, but if you give up, then you let whatever/whoever the obstacle was, win.

I myself am still trying to prove people from my past wrong and am still trying to prove to myself that I am capable of making my goals and drams come true. Don't ever give up, make people eat their words and judgements and take down your self-doubt, because you are the biggest obstacle and the biggest judge of yourself. You have to try or else you'll never know what could've been.And life is too short and precious to live with regret.

Love, TheCollegeFitnessFoodie

I'm fighting for this dream.

As well as this dream.

And this dream.

"Do it all, with no regrets, you may be done with life, but life's not finished with you yet."